Forgive me readers for I have sinned, It has been 12 days since my last entry. I repent and throw myself down in search of mercy. Hahaha.

Yeah, ok. It has been some time, things have been rather difficult for me lately both in my weightloss journey and in my personal life. But I feel like things are slowly getting back on track. My doctor has me back on Synthroid to control my underactive thyroid and that should help with the weight issue, and iron supplements too as I seem to rather anemic. Go figure…sure explains some of my exhaustion.Â
I have also felt myself slipping back further and further into the darkness that I have come to know as my depression. I have dealt with this on and off since I was 17, after a rather traumatic experience in my life, and everytime I feel better and come off medication, it lasts a short time before I feel awful again. As such, I find myself back on my medication again.Â

Celexa SUCKS. I have no idea yet whether it is helping the depression, but it sure is making me feel crappy. I am exhausted, have MAJOR nausea for most of the day and seem to have a problem with dry mouth. The advantage of the dry mouth of course is that I have a water bottle permanently attached to me these days, and we all know the virtues of water right? If you don’t, you’ve been clearly living under a rock and I invite you to join the real world. One of the other lovely side effects seems to be loss of appetite which is fantastic…sort of. Last time, I gained weight…this time, not so much. I am trying to make sure I eat enough, but its very hard.

I have not been to the gym in about 2 1/2 weeks, and I’m really feeling it. I have been walking, because it allows me to think in the peacefulness of my own head.Â

Here’s my weight tracking since New Year’s…..

Jan 1/08 - 355
Jan 7/08 - 350
Jan 14/08 - 342.4
Jan 21/08 - 336.4
Jan 28/08 - 337.4
Feb 4/08 - 337.6
Feb 11/08 - 336.2
Feb 18/08 - 332.8
Feb 25/08 - 330.425 lbs in 2 months is good for me :)Â

I am trying desperately to stay on track, and while it’s been hard, I am incredibly thankful to have the support of Hotty Hubby and my friends.